a humble realization...

This morning in the shower as the hot water poured over my shoulders I came to a realization... if God has forgiven me of all my wrongs then what right do I have to hold on to them?

Why is that such a hard thing to do? I can’t seem to get past all of the wrongs I’ve done in my life... there isn’t an event that I can think of that I can’t somehow find something that I did, thought or said that isn’t embarrassing or simply fills me with shame... and I’m so good at dwelling on these wrongs!

So what do I do?... live all of my memories over and over ... beating myself up for falling short in any given situation... something I could have .. should have done ... better or more upstanding ... than what I actually did. Why does my mind hover over all of my wrongs?? and worse- I allow it to every single day! It’s not like I need to relive them. They are past and there is no way to re-do them. What’s done is done! period.

So from this moment on .. this very moment forward I shall not dwell on my negatives of my past... I no longer want to carry that heavy load but will look back with gratitude on memories that make up a healthy - mostly happy and positive life. With the realization that mistakes made are part of being human and with the acknowledgment that as a human being we will always be imperfect... After all isn’t that what we all are?

imperfect beings...

only made pure through the grace of Jesus!

❤